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just an update for my workout regime +5 = +23 points =]

Other than that I have been eating super healthy. Lots of protein the past few days which I feel I never get enough of any more so this fact makes me happy. Did some fairly HxC cycling today but only did 30 minutes. I didn't want to over do it and I had a killer wedgie which is difficult to pick discretely in a room of people. Seeing as I work with these people, it was a little embarrassing to have to deal with so I just cycled for 30 minutes and ran to the locker room lol. I really want to restrict my diet down to 400 cal a day. total. not add on extras because of exercise. I just want to see the pounds melt away every day. But I like to eat and when I don't do it for several days I get light headed and fall asleep everywhere.

Also I find myself thinking about exercise every minute of the day. I am obsessed with it. All I want to do is run around the track or lift weights, go swimming, not eat.

Any thing to not eat. And yet I do eat still. It's like there is this voice in my head saying: your fat. disgusting, dont touch that food, dont even LOOK! Don't inhale that delicious aroma! Go run do crunches pick up that weight. NOWNOWNOWFATFATFATFAT! I don't like it and I am sure I am going crazy. My calorie intake reduces everyday and when I go above 900 I feel an intense need to throw up. I can't finish a plate anymore. IDK is this healthy?