epic fail

eating started off good this morning. ate just fruit for breakfast and that was all. but then at lunch i wanted to snack on bread so i got a scoop of tuna fish too because it sounded so tasty and i split my samich with someone else. i even gave them the bigger half like a good girl. but then i just started to binge. ate mashed potatoes and gravy and another samich! ahhh food you beast you totally beat me.

so then i thought "dont sweat it mick, that wasnt too bad" so i drank tons of water to fill myself up for the next meal and at dinner i ate mashed potatoes, fruit loops, and three bites of sir fry. i know weird combo. i guess now that im looking back, except for lunch i did really good. i just wish i had the self control to only eat a few bites and let the rest sit there.

i always make a plate and start munching super slow so i dont eat it all but then everyone takes so long to finish i end up devoring the whole tray. its depressing that i cant sit infront of food without losing control. ughhh depressing. oh well! ill be on a plane in a few days and then home alone with a mom who never eats in the house so i can starve all day =)