turn a new leaf

new fast on midsummer night called turn a new leaf. it was supposed to be from spet 10 to oct 2 but i just saw the post because im lame and has no internets so i will go from today =). i cant do a full fast until after the 22 because im in virginia where people notice my eating habits but i will fast for the weekend and then eat fruit and vegis during the week. 200 cals per meal =) and then full fast when i get home except for the nights i eat with nicky. but he is a vegitarian so the food is healthy and low cal. and one trip to raisin canes which i know is all the calories i need for the week but its sooo tasty!!! ahhhh lol. i know i will eat there so i might as well consider those things ahead of time. i have no idea what my current weight or bmi is. i will guess im about 135 (yuck) i want to be 125 by the end. so here is my list of things i hate about myself 1 i jiggle when i walk2 my skinny jeans look like fat jeans. 3 noone hits on me 4 my belly is a fat bloated mess that protrudes aver my clothes. 4 its gross when i take off my clothes 5 my thighs touch even by my knees. 6 my calves are huge and weird looking. 7 my thighs are shaped weird where they connect to my hips because of the fat on the sides. 8there is a roll on my back because the fat doesnt fit under my skin. 9 i look pregnant after i eat 10 my arms are fat and i have little hands which makes them look like they r connected to a weird midget chick. 11 it hard to do pushups n situps when u r carrying extra weight 12 i have a gizard 13 bathing suits 14 tips are better when your skinny list of things to do when skinny 1 be a miller girl 2 wear anything and look good 3 you look taller when your skinny 4 thin hair is bigger on skinny people 5 heels leggings and a sweat shirt only works on little girls 6 hip bones are the best places for thumbs 7 scene girls are skinny. wish me luck!